Got a letter today, from Texas Workforce Commission, which indicates that I am “approved” for unemployment benefits.
Perhaps I can take a breather for a bit…?
Tag: job
Wednesday, December 9th, 2009
Walking Wounded
Second week without my job
Second week
I feel so deflated
I’m trying to “get going”
but I am so very tired of being knocked down and getting back up
Over and over
and over
again
can’t I just stay down?
Tags: job, unemployment
Monday, December 7th, 2009
Second Week…
So starts my second week of unemployment…
I miss the camaraderie
I miss the emotional support
I miss the spiritual support
Being laid off sucks
Being laid off for no good reason sucks
Still sucks.
Tags: employment, job, unemployment
Friday, December 4th, 2009
Surviving
Life I’m living still sucks.
Geez I am just Pathetic right now.
Its Frustrating for me, but I realize that its to be expected, given everything I’m going through.
Just gotta Hang On through this “Rough Patch”.
Rough patch… *LOL*
Anyway…
I’m a Big Reality Show Junkie.
My guilty pleasure…
And my Favorite Reality Show, Survivor, was on last night.
I Love it!
John got voted off… what a Blindside! This season is proving itself to be interesting…
I have to be careful though, not to descend into a life of TV and computer games. It would be too easy to try and escape that way…
So I have to remember to pick myself up.
Remember that I am Surviving.
All around, I am Surviving.
Tags: employment, job, Survivor, unemployment
Thursday, December 3rd, 2009
Sinking
I slept until 11:13 this morning.
I can’t let this keep happening.
Better get the wah-wah-wah out of me by this week.
This week is it.
I don’t know if I can handle any more depression.
Tags: employment, job, unemployment
Wednesday, December 2nd, 2009
Bogged Down
I wish I could get motivated
but I just want to stay in bed…
I know I need to allow myself a “mourning” period
I just hope it does not consume me.
How many hits can I take…?
Tags: depression, employment, job, unemployment
Tuesday, December 1st, 2009
The Unemployed
Today is my first day of unemployment.
I think today I will just take a breath.
Tags: employment, job, unemployment
Monday, November 30th, 2009
Last Day
OMG
Today was Soooo bad.
It Just Sucked.
Seeing everyone who knew
was so hard.
Gong through my office one final time
was so hard.
Being there
was so hard.
I had to talk with my Manager, who had been out of town.
That was the last talk I ever wanted to have.
And I felt so betrayed.
I know it was out of his hands
But I would have thought that I deserved some notice of what was happening.
I would have Thought that.
THEN I find out that the employee who took the position
was not
an internal employee.
No.
She is a New Hire.
I have been with the company for 9 years.
I have worked this project for 20 months.
Yet
Someone who has never worked for the company
Who has not worked the project
Is deemed “a better fit” than I would be.
a better fit…
And all this was done within 2 weeks of my interview.
Within 2 weeks of the job I didn’t get…
So
Today Sucked.
Tags: employment, job, job interview, unemployment
Monday, November 23rd, 2009
Countdown
Today at work
Sucked
I’m going through my outstanding projects
Trying to get stuff finished
So that the new Admin
Isn’t overwhelmed.
And cleaning my office.
My contract company told me the position was filled in-house, so I remind myself that this is the way it works. ExxonMobil looks out for “its own” first. It would be different if they were going outside to fill the position.
Gotta maintain a good attitude and hope for another position like this one.
Meanwhile Mom is really riding me about going to Corpus for ThanksGiving. I’m Trying to find someone to watch the Girls (my dogs), but she is relentless in her pushing.
More Stress.
Thanks.
Tags: employment, ExxonMobil, job, ThanksGiving, unemployment
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
Listing
Dang… I have so much to think about now…
I’m so tired, emotionally spent.
Listing…
So much to do
So much to list…
* Have to contact the drug companies and update them…
Need to change my contact and mailing info and see how this unemployment affects my status and / or programs eligibility. Hopefully nothing to worry about.
* Check out unemployment, if I qualify.
Finding another job will be difficult due to my health situation. I often go in late cuz the mornings are difficult for me. Sometimes the headaches keep me up at night, or wake me up throughout the night; sometimes I get very little sleep, or I have to take sleeping aids so that my sleep is not real rest. I miss some work for Doctor appointments and have tests and procedures…
The meds have side effects like memory issues and balance problems and the Hand and Foot Syndrome has the tips of my fingers and toes ultra sensitive and splitting and I’m wearing band-aids and finger cots on my fingers.
I’ve applied for unemployment twice in my life, but never have collected cuz I always got a job before I got my benefits. This will be a new situation for me and not one that I am proud of.
* Need to get back onto Auctiva and start TeamDenise’s eBay account and start selling again.
I lost confidence in my selling in March of 2008. I need to get it back.
* Need to get my fundraiser project back on track.
Yes, I’m tired, yes I’m tired of feeling like a beggar… but it’s not getting done and I want to keep myself alive, so that means money. And there will be even less money than there was before, so I need to get out there and do it.
And
* Waiting for the results of my PET scan…
Scared of what they will showed. Hopeful, but so scared.
I’m so tired… but what can I do with this
Listing?
Tags: employment, fund, Fundraising, fundraising projects, job, unemployment
