My hair is growing back pretty well.
It’s thick
and curly
and puffy
not like it was before
straight
I look like I stuck my thumb in my mouth
and blew
and my hair popped out
like a big dandelion puff
maybe someone will walk up
and blow
and puff all my chemo hair
away
Tags: hair, Hair changes
My hair is growing back. I’m not quite sure how I feel about this…
On the one hand, I’m really glad to have it coming back. As a woman, not having hair was rather de-feminizing. That’s why I wore headbands and put cute pins on them, to add a touch of “girlieness” to the baldness. Also increased the amount of eye makeup I wore, and got larger, more ornate earings. Overall, a nice effect.
Being bald was not that bad to adjust to, and without the circumstances, it was interesting and “freeing”. Freeing to not worry about my hair, was I having a good or bad hair day. Every day was a “no hair day”…
My friend, Tim, came over the other day, and he told me that I am rocking the lesbian look. Ok, now I’m pretty sure that not all lesbians have short butchy haircuts… plus, I’m not lesbian. He did say it was kinda sexy… so – Yah, Thanks Tim!
On the other hand, being bald was like a sign that I am sick, that I am battling. Since I don’t look like the “typical” cancer victim of thin and frail, my bald head was what signaled that I am at war…
I stopped to get coffee on the way to the Dr the other morning, and the gal asked what I was up to for the day. I mentioned that I was going to the Dr and she asked if I was sick. I looked at her and said, I have cancer, that’s why I have no hair. And she told me that she just thought I had a really short haircut. I started to cry. I couldn’t help it. I know it made her feel bad, but I couldn’t help it.
It’s not that being bald is my identity, it’s that I have come to see it as a symbol, a symbol that I am fighting. Being bald is the one thing that openly displays the fight I am engaged in… and the symbol is being removed… but the cancer is not removed and I am still fighting… still fighting.
What can I say… I’m just not sure how I feel about it.
My hair is growing back regardless of how I feel…
Tags: Hair changes, hair regrowth
At least I’m HOPING so!
As I mentioned before, one thing “they” don’t tell you about chemo, is that you will – for the most part and cuz it looks and feels better – want to shave your head when you start to loose your hair. At least I did.
I have actually enjoyed being bald, if it were not for the circumstances. And I’m considering keeping my hair Very short for the time being, at least until this whole situation has some type of resolution..
I was told that chemo starts to “leave” my body after about 1 month, and I should start to “recover” after about 3 to 6 months. My last chemo treatment was April 23, so I guess I’m lucky that my hair seems like it’s trying to come back “already”…
I have noticed that the hair under my arms has started to regrow, so I wanted to see just how well the hair on my head has recovered.
The last time I shaved my head was June 28… and this is what I have so far…
My hair is growing back. 8 Photos After a few days of not shaving... we seem to have good growth! 9 Photos I stopped shaving my head on June 28, let's see what happens... 5 Photos As time goes by, so grows my hair! 5 Photos
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Up early after being “deathly” sick the past 2 days. Killing time…
Being a woman, I got my priorities all screwy. Before other pictures, I’ve downloaded my hair photos – or loss of hair photos.
It’s weird going through those photos and reliving the experience. I look at myself and I remember what is coming up next…
But I don’t know what is coming up in the future
for me.
How much of a future
do I have…
Are the decisions I’m making
the right ones
for me…
I can only Hope… I can only Believe.
The link is here “Hair Changes“, located in photos – - personal-photos – - hair changes
May 21 2009
I’m working on my treatment photos and will have them up within the next day or so….
Tags: Hair changes
You’d think that “hair is hair”, but I’ve noticed that the hair on my body that has fallen out due to chemo, has reacted differently based on location.
I’ve never had to worry much about shaving my legs, I could go weeks, sometimes months without any major growth. And the hair was on my calves, virtually nothing on my upper thighs.
Now I have no hair on my legs at all.
I still have hair on the knuckles of my toes, but not much. I don’t have to shave them at this time – yes, many women shave their toe knuckles!
I’m an adult woman, and since puberty have maintained a somewhat groomed intimate area. Basically – clean and tidy, adult with hair.
Now I am mostly bare, but not totally. And I dislike this. I like my hair. I will not shave the remainder, I am holding on to whatever semblance of adult female that I have left.
My underarms have always grown fast and required shaving weekly at minimum.
Now I have Nothing – not one single hair.
I have always had a lovely thick head of hair.
and now… well, now I am bald.
But I’m not Totally bald, I am “patchy” bald… so I have to shave so I don’t look like something from Dr. Seuss.
Seems hair is particular about holding on and letting go…
Tags: hair, Hair changes
I had my head shaved after work today. As quickly as it was falling out, it was time to shave it all off.
Mom went with me to Maribel’s Great Cuts and Maribel shaved it for me. It was difficult, but kind of a relief to get that completed. No more funky colors or cuts, just nothing…
Tags: hair, Hair changes, hair cut
Didn’t realize it yesterday when I got the cut, but today is April Fool’s Day… kinda apropos for the blue mohawk…
Tags: hair, Hair changes, hair cut
I had 2 large bald spots on either side of my head…
so I decided to go on and get a “mohawk”, or as much of one as what was left of my hair would allow…
Mom and I went to Maribel’s again – that should go without saying by now…
Later, we went to Christine & Rob’s, where Christine helped Mom to dye my mohawk strip a neon blue.
It was a busy evening… Good times with breast cancer…
Tags: Christine & Rob, hair, Hair changes, hair cut
My hair is falling out fast and furious now, so I went and got a buzz cut after work today at Maribel’s Great Cuts. It was pretty emotional… I tried to be light hearted about it, everyone reminds me that this is temporary, that it will grow back…but still…
Tags: hair, Hair changes, hair cut
Got my first large bald spot this evening. Getting ready for bed and brushed my hair… got a large clump in my brush.
Tags: baldness, hair, Hair changes
