I’m still ill from chemo.  This has been the longest yet.  Almost 6 days.  Last Thursday til today (Tuesday).  How do people do this for months… years…?

My heart is still doing wonky things… skipping beats, extra beats, slowing down, racing.  I get surges of adrenaline, and have nothing to do with them except practice slow breathing to calm them down.

Still nauseous, still burping up noxious gas.  I’ve never been much of a Girly-girl, but this is just downright Gross.

My eyes are tearing, and I can still feel the toxicity in my tears… they burn my eyes.  The corners of my eyes are raw from the acrid liquid that my eyes are expelling.

I wish I had someone to hold me and tell me it was gonna be all right… someone I could believe.