Tag: Chemo Infusions
Friday, April 24th, 2009
It gets harder each time. Harder and Harder
Longer to recover.
My body aches,my muscles, my bones, my head. The dizziness, round and round…
Harder to drag myself out of bed.
Out of bed, where I want to stay.
To sleep
Forever
It would be so easy to give up
After everything that’s happened this past week
But I can’t.
I won’t.
I will not.
The anti-nausea meds keep the vomiting at bay, but not the feeling of nauseousness… not the reaction of my body to attempt to rid itself of this evil fluid. The natural reaction.
The damage this poisoning is doing will be with me for years…
Tags: Adriamycin, Chemo Infusions, Cytoxan, nausea
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Saturday, April 11th, 2009
I am told that each time will be more difficult to recover from. And it’s proving to be correct.
I ache with every movement. Skin, muscles, bones crawl with pain. There is no comfort.
The dizziness catches me off guard, yet I should be prepared for it. The headache is the stern reminder of what is coming. Throbbing. Pounding. Stabbing.
My body wretches with the urgency to expel this poison from my system.
This burning
searing
poisonous
liquid.
Tags: Adriamycin, Chemo Infusions, Cytoxan, nausea
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Saturday, March 28th, 2009
Thursday was my second treatment of the A/C combo (Adriamycin, aka Red Devil and Cytoxan).
Mom and I bring games to play, while we’re waiting., to try and pass the time, to take my mind off of what is going into my body.
Watching that red liquid flow into my port is terrifying. The taste in my mouth is noxious. As advanced as we, as a civilization, are, WHY are we Still utilizing a treatment option that was given to the previous generations? It Can’t be because it works, because it kills as it “cures”.
I’m tired and there are no answers.
I’m going back to bed…
Tags: Adriamycin, Chemo Infusions, Cytoxan, nausea
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Thursday, March 12th, 2009
This is horrible, this chemo.
Had to go and get my Neulasta shot this morning.
the Magic Potion.
The wound from the port-a-cath surgery had a hematoma, and the nurse had to press the area to get the fluid out.
It was Painful.
It hurts.
and
I hurt all over.
I wanna go back to sleep.
I ache, I hurt, I am nauseous, I wanna puke, I don’t wanna puke.
My head hurts, my eyes hurt, my skin hurts, I hurt…
My Bones Hurt.
Drink drink drink – more liquids.
Saltines please
Broth
Where’s the bucket?
Who thinks this is a good idea??
I wanna go back to sleep.
Tags: Adriamycin, Chemo Infusions, Cytoxan, nausea
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Wednesday, March 11th, 2009
Had my first chemo today.
The nurses were very nice, but the chemo itself was Horrible.
The feeling, the taste, the smell of that poison going into my body is just revolting.
I feel very sick and am going back to bed.
Tags: Adriamycin, Chemo Infusions, Cytoxan, nausea
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