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Thursday, December 31st, 2009

New Year’s Eve 2009

Spending New Year’s Eve alone as well.
Like Christmas.
alone.

Had two Friends ask what I was doing
After I asked them
And then felt bad
or trapped
when I said that I would be
alone
and didn’t know what to say or do
so came the
“obligatory” invites
to join them
in their festivities
that did not include me

One Friend – an old Friend from high school and his wife
Already planning to celebrate together, privately
Offering to include me
beforehand
How kind to care
I’ll pass, Thank You.

The other Friend – a Family celebration
She has just gone through surgery
And still in pain and disabled
Offering to include me
Despite her own struggles
How kind to care
I’ll pass, Thank You.

The obligatory comment from my Mother
Wish you were here..
but not
don’t worry about your dogs
just come be with us.

Nothing else
No party
no gathering
no small get-together
Nothing

No one should be
alone
at this time
One should be with Family
or Friends
Should be.

Not the Holiday I thought I would be having
Not the way that was planned
Not the way that was planned with another
Broken all around.

Still sad
but getting used to it.

Bring in 2010,
It has GOT to be better than 2009.

But then I said that about 2008 into 2009
and it just got worse.
Much worse.

I’m scared
and alone.

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Sunday, October 25th, 2009

BOARDGAMING: October 2009 Party

I belong to a couple of social-oriented boardgame groups that meet monthly. Yesterday was the October Event, and since it’s October, the theme was – traditionally – Halloween!  Costumes and all! I LOVED IT!!

It was a “small” gathering, but Much Fun none-the-less! We had some Really cute costumes, however “medical” seemed to be the theme of the evening, with two Drs, one nurse and one patient! There was also a pair of Zombies (a bride and a groom) that had been run over by a car (with Tire Marks on their clothes!!), a Construction Worker, A Lobster, a Renaissance Wench, The Count from Sesame Street (who Continuously Counted *LOL*) and the Cat In The Hat – some Really CUTE costumes!  I found a cool T-Shirt at WalMart that depicted a version of the face from Munch’s “The Scream“.  It was orange and black - I wore it with purple stirrup pants and orange and black stripped socks… I also found some large black earrings that were shaped like the mouth of The Scream… Considering my current situation, I thought it was very appropriate  *LOL*

The Host & Hostess Zombies (Rob & Christine)

Bride & Groom Zombies, having been run over by a car!

Bride & Groom Zombies, having been run over by a car!

There was Lots of fun and ~~Spoooookey~~ foods too – Gorey Intestine Spaghetti, Roasted Witches Fingers, Putrid Pumpkin Pie with Bloody Mess topping, Graveyard Gore in Flayed Flesh cups, Gangrene pockets, Poisoned Apples with Pus dip, Ghastly Grins, Graveyard brownies, Kitty Litter cake, and assorted Spirits and Libations! Everything was Awesome! I hope I remembered everything!

Spending time and playing games with Friends allows me to “forget” about my situation, and enjoy some time just relaxing. It was Really Nice.

There were some ”light”  (Party) games played, and there were some “heavier” ones played too…

GAMES PLAYED
* 13 Dead End Drive
* 6 Nimmt
* Can’t Stop
* Dominion
* Guesstures
* Five Crowns
* Stone Age
* Werewolf

I love boardgaming… and – in this case – a glass (or two) of Halloween Grog! Yes indeed :-)

Was GREAT to spend some Quality time with Good Friends!!

Jack Skellington

Jack Skellington

Wanna see what’s out there these days?
Check out BoardGameGeek – it’s an Awesome site!!

Thursday, October 8th, 2009

Golden Years

Today

is my Parents’

50th Wedding Anniversary.

Fifty years of Building A Life Together.

Fifty years of Loving and Laughing
Fifty years of Fussing and Bickering

Fifty years of Standing Together
Fifty years of Supporting Each Other

Fifty years of Acceptance
Fifty years of Compromise

Fifty years

For Better
For Worse

In Sickness
In Health

Fifty years of Making It Work.
cuz it Won’t Work
unless you Work At It
Together.

And They Do.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, Mom & Dad!!!

LOVE Y’all!!

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Sunday, June 28th, 2009

NEWS: PARP Inhibitors Working Against Inherited Cancers

More UNBELIEVEABLE Information!  This has been a Very Special Week in the War Against Cancer!!

I NEED to find out if this cancer I have is inherited.  I’m guessing that it is Very Possible, since Mom had the Same type of cancer 26yrs ago…

June 25th, 2009
PARP inhibitors working against inherited cancers
Posted by Dana Blankenhorn @ 6:29 am

If a genetic condition leads to cancer there is new hope in a class of drugs called PARP inhibitors.

Poly (ADP-Ribose) Polymerase (PARP) is a protein cells use to repair genetic injuries naturally. But cancer cells also use this protein to repair their own DNA damage. Inhibiting this action allows chemotherapy and radiation to do its job against cancers resulting from genetic mutation.

In a study causing much excitement in the cancer-fighting world (CBS called this the “holy grail” of cancer research, thus the French Taunter above) scientists at the Institute of Cancer Research in Sutton, England gave 19 patients with advanced cancers caused by mutations in the BRCA1 and BRCA2 genes a PARP inhibitor and over half saw their tumors shrink or stop growing.

The drug had no effect on 41 patients whose tumors were not the result of the genetic defect.

The big excitement is that PARP inhibitors can be designed against other forms of inherited cancer. They are already being tested against a form of breast cancer. And there are few side effects — you take a pill twice a day and may get some indigestion.

The new drug has the name olaparib. The full article is now in front of the New England Journal of Medicine firewall.

The Royal Marsden NHS Foundation Trust, which worked with the Netherlands Cancer Institute and drug maker KuDOS Pharmaceuticals, now owned by AstraZeneca, is a charitable group affiliated with that nation’s National Health Service. They would welcome your contribution.

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Sunday, June 28th, 2009

NEWS: New Drugs Could Transform Cancer Treatment

OMG, the implications of this study!!!  I can’t stop crying, can’t stop hoping…  THANKS to Vicki for sharing this info with me at the Baby Shower yesterday!!!

I’ve GOT to find out if/how I can qualify for clinical trials!!!

PARP inhibitors appear to destroy disease, small but stunning study shows
Commentary
By Robert Bazell
Chief science and health correspondent
NBC News
4:13 p.m. CT, Wed., June 24, 2009

Just-released research about a new class of drugs called “PARP inhibitors” is the most exciting development in cancer research in a decade or more. In just a few years it could save thousands of lives.

In the longer term, the drugs could represent a transformational approach to understanding and treating several forms of the disease.

All this enthusiasm is based on a small report published today (June 24) in the New England Journal of Medicine. It focuses on one clinical trial in its earliest stage in 60 patients with breast, ovarian and prostate cancer. Some — but not all — of the patients whose cancers seemed hopeless saw them shrink drastically or disappear. Many avoided the typical side effects — nausea, hair loss — associated with cancer treatment.

Of course, as with any good science, it is not just that one report that generates such excitement. The new research builds on many years of solid basic science and on other clinical trials that are either completed or in progress, which appear to show similarly dramatic reduction of certain breast, ovarian and prostate cancers.

The story of PARP inhibitors began in the early 1990s, when some scientists realized that breast cancer ran in certain families, and that some of the women in those families had an extraordinarily high — as much as a 90 percent lifetime risk — of getting the disease. There was a frantic and well-publicized hunt for the “breast cancer gene.” The hope was that finding the gene could provide crucial information about the cause of breast cancer and how to treat it.

BRCA1, BRCA2 raise risk for breast cancer
In September 1994, scientists from a company called Myriad Genetics and government researchers simultaneously won the race. It turned out there were two genes called BRCA1 and BRCA2. As they studied the genes, the researchers learned that they account for between 5 and 10 percent of all breast cancers, as well as a similar percentage of ovarian cancers and prostate cancers in men who are born with the mutated gene.

The immediate result of the gene discovery was that families and individuals at high risk could find out when they were affected. That continues to this day. But for those at risk, the treatment options are limited: surgical removal or close monitoring of the organs that might become cancerous.

What initially eluded the scientists was how BRCA1 and BRCA2 caused cancer. “We found the breast cancer gene, but we don’t know how it causes breast cancer,” one scientist famously quipped.

Years of hard work eventually revealed the mechanism. BRCA1 and BRCA2 produce proteins that repair mistakes in DNA that occur continually as cells in the body multiply normally. If a person is born with one defective of copy of one of the genes, the cells continue to grow but there is a far greater chance that an error will occur in the DNA that will cause cancer to arise.

ARP inhibitors kill cancer cells
The next big discovery came in 2005 when scientists found in lab experiments that they could make a drug, called a PARP inhibitor, that would interfere with the normal copy of the protein made from BRCA1 and BRCA2 genes. If cells have defective genes, when the drug is added, the DNA cannot be repaired at all. As a result, the cells die. And that is how PARP inhibitors kill cancer cells.

In experiments so far, the drugs have worked only in people with BRCA 1 and BRCA2 mutations resulting in breast, ovarian and prostate cancers. But there is evidence they may work in people without the mutations — particularly in cases of ovarian cancer for which better treatments are desperately needed.

The story of the PARP inhibitors is fine example of how research can move from the laboratory bench to the bedside, and it also shows how long and difficult journey can be.

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Saturday, June 27th, 2009

Baby Shower – Raquel & Neil, June 27 2009

Today was a rare day – something non-cancer related – YAY!

Today was a Baby Shower for Dear Friends, Raquel & Neil who are welcoming their first – a Baby Girl.  (Raquel is from Brazil, and her name is pronounced “Ha-Kell”, and Neil is, well – Neil  *LOL*)

To say that her pregnancy was a surprise is putting it mildly.  They are mid/late-30′s and as long as I have known them (about 5 years) they have maintained that they did not want children.  Actually, I personally believe that it was more Raquel, cuz I always thought I could see in Neil’s eyes that he would love a child, but he loved Raquel more and knew that was how she felt.

I know Raquel is concerned about the type of parent she will make, especially cuz she thinks she will be too strict.  But, as I told her, children need the structure, they need the boundaries and the limits – otherwise you end up with what you see so many children have become these days – pain in the butt, spoiled brats that you don’t want to have around.  That Little Girl will have Neil Wrapped Around Her Finger, so Raquel will be the one to keep them both in line  *LOL*  She Will Be Fine.

It’s been a difficult pregnancy for Raquel, she’s been ill most of the time.  But, with their dispositions, this baby cannot be any less than a Beautiful person and a Beautiful child.  Raquel & Neil will make WONDERFUL Parents.

Anyway… the purpose of the post…

The Baby Shower was held at the home of R&N’s next-door neighbors, and Dear Friends, Vicki & Steve.  It is a Lovely home and is Great for entertaining!  Vicki & Steve both have grown children, and they are looking forward to a baby to cuddle and spoil right next door.  Plus they love R&N, so that makes it even better!

The Party was LOVELY.  I was worried – like many Baby Showers that I have been too – that there would be an abundance of sweets and no food of substance.  Since I am on a somewhat “restricted” diet which stresses no refined or artificial sugars, a menu of all sweets is pretty tough for me.  So, just in case, I brought some fruit and veggies for me to munch on.

Was I Ever Surprised to see that, along with one small chocolate (torture for me!) cake, and some brownies (more torture!), the majority of the food was Brazilian appetizers!  And I Love Brazilian Food!

There were coxinha (“little drumsticks” – soft, fried dumplings filled with savory, shredded chicken and covered with a soft, delectable pastry coated in fine breadcrumbs), pão de queijo (small, cheese-flavored rolls), shrimp, chicken and beef empanadas and empadinhas (a folded dough or bread patty around a flavorful  stuffing – one was a cornmeal dough, the other was a flaky pastry dough ), and shrimp and chicken empadinhas (small tarts).  The food was Wonderful and the Mimosas were Yummy!

And the Party was FABULOUS!  Vicki & Steve are Fantastic Hosts, and co-hosts Ellen & Martin were Just As Gracious!  A Lovely Baby Shower for a somewhat “older” crowd”.  The decorations were tasteful and somewhat low key, but still prevalent – there was no doubt it was a baby shower.  The games were FunFunFun – with prizes like sets of travel candles and bottles of champagne!

Games We Played:
* TP Belly – guess how much TP would go around Raquel’s belly once!
* Purse Weigh – (non-traditional Baby Shower game!) weigh all the Ladies’ purses and the Heaviest won!
* M&Ms in The Bottle – guess how many M&Ms were in the BIG Baby Bottle (M&Ms were pastel pink and purple and had “Raquel” printed on them)!
* Messy Diapers – 4 diapers with messes in them… guess which CHOCOLATE BAR was each mess (totally melted and smushed Almond Joy, Reese’s, Rollos, Musketeers – Very Authentic Looking, but Yummy Smelling  *LOL*)!

I had a Wonderful time, it was a Lovely day, and I took a BUNCH of photos!

CONGRATULATIONS TO RAQUEL & NEIL!!!

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Sunday, June 21st, 2009

Happy Father’s Day, Dad…

Happy Father’s Day to my Dad.

Again, like Mother’s Day, this is not at all what any of us had in mind for a Father’s Day, but I am so Very Fortunate to have have you and Mom by my side me on this awful journey

I know that you & Mom are supposed to be enjoying life and being in a “good place”, not having to take care of others.  Both of y’all have given up so much in taking care of your Mother, and Mom’s Mother, and then Mom’s Father and his wife, and now me…

You Know that this I not what I wanted… it was supposed to be Clifford with me, not you & Mom… he, the one you thought of as your own son,  betrayed us all with his empty promises and shallow judgments.

How can I ever say it enough… Dad, Thank You.

Thank You for putting up with Mom being gone so much to come here to care for me, Thank You for putting up with me, Thank You for all you do, Thanks you for “being there”.

Love You, Dad!

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Sunday, May 17th, 2009

Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser Event (Recap) – May 16 2009

It Was Awesome. Totally and Completely Awesome.

Mom and I arrived at “Christ The Good Shepherd” Church about 2pm and we got to participate in the “transformation”.  It was something to see, something to be a part of!

It started as a large area for receptions – stark and empty.

Then “The Team” took over… John & Mitzi R and Maria and Joseph (2 of their 3 children), Paula S and daughter Bella, Jeannie & John R, Ellen V, Laurie P, Josie & Bill E, Randy & Sharon P, Sean G, Pat S, Holly N, Stacie & Nate G, Hazer W, Vivian H, Nancy W, Russell T, Sam H…  and My Mom.

We brought out tables and chairs and tablecloths and decor…

When finished, it was Spectacular… The theme was “Italian” and the decor reflected a quaint Italian restaurant, complete with the solid red and green, and the red and white checkered tablecloths.  There were centerpieces made of the large cans of tomatoes used in the sauce – cleaned (of course) and stuffed with green, white and red tissue paper and accented with green, white and red balloons (colors of the Italian Flag).  Very Creative! The music (supplied by Laurie P) was very apropos – Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, et al!

There were balloons Everywhere!  Red, Green and White!  And – of course – Pink and White (colors for breast cancer and bone cancer).

The meal consisted of pasta, and sauce (either Italian sausage or meatless), garlic bread, salad, tea or water and a selection of desserts (brought by the volunteers).  Each table was set with a bowl of pesto and grated cheese.  The meal could be eaten there, or there were “to-go” boxes available.  Seating was for about 100 at a time, and there were also many “to-go” boxes sold.

I had special Teeshirts made for the Volunteers, and we also had Teeshirts (to sell) with “I Helped Someone Survive Breast Cancer” on them.  Thank You to ScreamingTees for the Teeshirts!

Donna M made some Lovely crystal bead, pink ribbon cell phone dangles – they were Beautiful and sold well!

There were 10 or 12 FULL tables of items for Silent Auction!  My co-workers brought items and got gift certificates from local businesses; Audrey R made 3 gift baskets of specialized items (baking, spa and safety), and Laurie P had an Italian “Mystery Box”.  Josie E went to the Master Gardener at Mercer Botanical Gardens and got some plants donated to sell.  Nancy W donated some of her handmade pottery. Personal friends who donated to the Silent Auction were Jim H, Zach M, Donna & Mike M, Virginia & Dean O, Crystal G, Stephanie U and Ms. P.  Their gracious gifts were Much Appreciated!

Towards the end of the evening, Tom (my boss) held a Live Auction of the Silent Auction items that had not sold. That man is So Funny – and he got Everything sold!

My Dad drove in from Corpus Christi to attend – that was Awesome!  Personal Friends who attended were Carol and son, Zach; Christy & Bill; Crystal & Ryan and friend Stephanie; Julie & Mick, Donna & Mike; Donna & Joe; Jim & Sheryl and son, Preston; Tim & Dawn.

The total raised for my treatment / recovery was $8,474.50 – the Silent Auction alone raised $1,520.50!  This was more financial assistance than I had ever considered.  The spiritual and emotional support from this was immeasurable.

All this started as an idea in John R’s head, to do something for me.  From someone I work with, to do something to help me with my situation, with my financial struggle.  An idea that was supported by others within my group and grew.  For me.  Still difficult for me to comprehend that my co-workers, who have known me for only a year – and some for less, did this for me.

John’s mother came up to me and told me that this was the first time that Christ The Good Shepherd has ever allowed something like this to be done, for an individual, and I imagine for someone who was not a member of the congregation…  What an honor for me to know this, what an honor for me to know that this Church thinks so highly of John to allow this.

Thank You is just not, and never will be, enough.

May 16 2009 - Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser

This event was "dreamed up" by my co-worker, John R. With the support of other co-workers, it grew and became something I will never forget, and am proud, and humbled, to have been associated with. "Thank You" will Never Be Enough.

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Here’s the Teeshirts we had…

 

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Saturday, May 16th, 2009

Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser Event – May 16 2009

The Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser is today.  John has asked each volunteer to bring a dessert, and I am making a Tres Leches cake.  I cooked it last night and got the first soaking done.  Today will be the second soaking.  Then the topping – I use a marshmallow topping with chopped dried tropical fruits…

I am also bring garlic heads to roast.  I Love roasted garlic!

I hope this event goes well… I’m excited and nervous at the same time.


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Friday, May 15th, 2009

Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser Event – May 16 2009

The Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser is tomorrow…

Some of the “Team” met at the church after work today to chop onions and make pesto. John’s recipe is very simple, but Yummy.  Fresh basil, olive oil, fresh garlic, Asiago cheese and walnuts.

Things were done quickly, and we didn’t stay long.

I’m excited about tomorrow, and still find it difficult to comprehend that my co-workers are doing this for me!

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