Second week without my job
Second week
I feel so deflated
I’m trying to “get going”
but I am so very tired of being knocked down and getting back up
Over and over
and over
again
can’t I just stay down?
employment Category
Wednesday, December 9th, 2009
Walking Wounded
Tags: job, unemployment
Thursday, December 3rd, 2009
Sinking
I slept until 11:13 this morning.
I can’t let this keep happening.
Better get the wah-wah-wah out of me by this week.
This week is it.
I don’t know if I can handle any more depression.
Tags: employment, job, unemployment
Tuesday, December 1st, 2009
The Unemployed
Today is my first day of unemployment.
I think today I will just take a breath.
Tags: employment, job, unemployment
Monday, November 30th, 2009
Last Day
OMG
Today was Soooo bad.
It Just Sucked.
Seeing everyone who knew
was so hard.
Gong through my office one final time
was so hard.
Being there
was so hard.
I had to talk with my Manager, who had been out of town.
That was the last talk I ever wanted to have.
And I felt so betrayed.
I know it was out of his hands
But I would have thought that I deserved some notice of what was happening.
I would have Thought that.
THEN I find out that the employee who took the position
was not
an internal employee.
No.
She is a New Hire.
I have been with the company for 9 years.
I have worked this project for 20 months.
Yet
Someone who has never worked for the company
Who has not worked the project
Is deemed “a better fit” than I would be.
a better fit…
And all this was done within 2 weeks of my interview.
Within 2 weeks of the job I didn’t get…
So
Today Sucked.
Tags: employment, job, job interview, unemployment
Sunday, November 29th, 2009
Home Again
I made it back home to Houston
returning from a pleasant vacation in Corpus
To be at work tomorrow
for one day
my last day
After 20 months
in the group
on the projects
Had to come back
to work the one day
One Day
So that I qualified for the yearly “bonus”
which is given
in lieu of vacation time.
I’ll get 1% of my salary
Which, due to time lost because of my situation
will equal approximately
1/2 week of pay.
Better than nothing…
but
This sucks.
Monday, November 23rd, 2009
Countdown
Today at work
Sucked
I’m going through my outstanding projects
Trying to get stuff finished
So that the new Admin
Isn’t overwhelmed.
And cleaning my office.
My contract company told me the position was filled in-house, so I remind myself that this is the way it works. ExxonMobil looks out for “its own” first. It would be different if they were going outside to fill the position.
Gotta maintain a good attitude and hope for another position like this one.
Meanwhile Mom is really riding me about going to Corpus for ThanksGiving. I’m Trying to find someone to watch the Girls (my dogs), but she is relentless in her pushing.
More Stress.
Thanks.
Tags: employment, ExxonMobil, job, ThanksGiving, unemployment
Saturday, November 21st, 2009
Stun Gunned
I’m stunned.
Just walking around in a daze
I don’t think this has hit me yet
Cuz I’m not “feeling” it
I just feel
Blasted and
Stunned.
Tags: employment, ExxonMobil, job, unemployment
