Farrah Fawcett 1947 – 2009

A Special Edition of 20/20
Farrah’s Love
Farrah Fawcett: life, loves, legacy

I watched the Barbara Walter’s Special on 20/20 this evening  – the hour about Farrah Fawcett… it really was a Great show and showed what a courageous woman she was in so many areas throughout her life.

I was so touched by the depth of love that Ryan O’Neal has for Farrah, it is so inspiring.  After a 30yr relationship, numerous break-ups and conflicts, when it all mattered, they came together for each other.  She supporting him though his leukemia diagnosis and remission, and he by her side throughout her cancer battle.

I’ve always wanted someone who care for me that deeply, someone to give that depth to.  I wasted so many years, decades, pining for someone who proved that he was so not worth it.  For someone who promised me my heart’s desire and then turned his back on me when I needed him the most.  It hurts so much to look back and see what I deprived myself of, what I overlooked because I purposely blinded myself…

I have to admit, I sat there, watching the show, alone, and I cried often.  And I wonder, how can this happen to someone who was full of life and strength and support…? Someone who had everything to live for…?

And how do I survive this battle of my own…?