Robert Mosbacher Sr., a Houston oil multimillionaire who served as U.S. Commerce secretary under his close friend, President George H.W. Bush, has died at M.D. Anderson Cancer Center. He was 82.
Mosbacher died after a yearlong battle with pancreatic cancer.
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Robert Mosbacher , 1927 – 2010
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Got up early today and went to Curves,
I’m enjoying the exercise
but
I was supposed to have
items up for sale on eBay by now
I have not
I am very concerned about the
Changes in the lump in my breast
Scared
Petrified
It seems that it is becoming
swollen
a feeling of
fullness
each day
and the pain
jabs
are still there
a feeling of
a pulled muscle
in the breast
I’m sure that
the stresses from everything
are contributing factors
The depression from
Loss of my job
The depression from
Christmas and New Year
Being alone
The month of
Eating
Drinking
Doing
Things I should not have
Easy to say that
I need to
Take better care
of myself
Easy to say
unless it is
too late…?
A possibility…
Tags: breast pain, Curves, exercise
Once again,
I’m trying
to put on a
new face
a
mask
A smile
to
fool
myself
to
fool
the
world
this might
help
if I actually
got out of
my pajamas
but they are so comfy
and I am
so tired…
Tags: New Year, New Year 2010
So…
After declaring that is was
time to
stop
the whining
I went and
fell right back into a
pitiful state.
Its Tough
Its a Tough situation
This situation
This cancer situation
Tough on
The Body
The Spirit
The Emotions
Its a Tough
time of year
This time of year
Tough
on the emotions
Tough
on the heart
Its been a Tough year
This past year 2009
I have
Lost
A Love
My Health
A Job
a Tough year
I’m not so tough
not so
Tough to be able
to carry this burden
without
cracking
at sometime
or another.
All I can do is
pick myself back up
dust myself off
put on a smile
keep on going
Tough it out.
Tags: Christmas 2009, New Year 2010
Time to shake this depression off of me like a dog shakes off its bath water.
Ok, I had a good cry
a Very Good Cry
felt sorry for myself
got mad
got mad at this cancer
got mad at Mr. Sack
got mad at my Folks
got mad at myself.
I can do that
I am allowed to do that.
Now, it’s
Time to
Stop the whining
Stop the public wailing.
I need to look back
and be
Grateful for the
Blessings I received.
I am Thankful for the Holiday cards people sent me. I loved opening each one. Anticipating the greetings, the decor of the cards, if anything would be enclosed – a note, a personal newsletter, photos, a memento.
Thank you.
My Mom & Dad paid to have the leak in the roof of the Hyundai fixed. That is a Huge stress off of me, but am sad at the “waste” of this large amount of money.
Thank You.
My Dear Friend, Crystal, gave me a loaf of the BEST Banana Bread I think I have Ever had! I Tried to ration it out, but it was too good. It is gone.
Thank You.
My Dear Friend, Christy, gave me some Spiced Pecans and Oreo Candy Cane Bark. Since I am not supposed to eat sugar, I am being very careful in rationing this out – but what I have had so far is Very Yummy!
Thank You.
My Dear Friend, Donna, made me a Beautiful name tag to wear at my social events. It is beaded and has fringe and is just LOVELY!
Thank You.
My Dear Friend, Grace, took me to dinner where we laughed and cried and laughed and drank too many margaritas.
Thank You.
My Friend, Josie, gave me a Lovely plaque inscribed with a quote attributed to Eleanor Roosevelt; “A woman is like a tea bag. You never know how strong she is until she gets into hot water”. This is very inspirational.
Thank You.
My Dear (Old-time) Friend, Marianne, sent me an AWESOME handmade Christmas stocking. Made of Funky Wild Pink Paisley patterned fabric with “Girl Friend” beads and decor and white faux fur and pom-pom trim, and filled with fun and useful items. It was So Much Fun to unwrap!
Thank You.
In lieu of gifts, I received some Unbelievable donations for the Holidays. I was several people’s “Charity of Choice”. While I do not relish this title, I am Extremely Grateful to be gifted in such a manner.
* Cherie’ & Billy
* Marianne & Jim
* Patti
* Katherine & Family
* Margot
* Cindy & Family
* Christy & Bill
* Niver Family
Thank You is not, and will never be, enough.
My (Old-time) Friend, Cherie’ & Hubby, Billy, made me their “Charity of Choice” in their annual Charity Exchange with their Friends. I received (an additional) 5 generous donations due to their gracious act of kindness.
Again, Thank You is not enough.
So… while I will always mourn the loss of the life that was planned with Mr. Sack and what I gave up “for him”, for everything we had talked of, for everything we had planned, for everything we had promised… for the 35+ years that I believed him to be the epitome of a man and held him up to compare all others to (which they were never able to measure up), for the lies he told and the shallow judgment he made, for him “dumping” me one month after my diagnosis – for now, there is enough whining about what was lost and be Grateful for what I have.
Shake off the Bath Water.
The dampness will dry out in time…
I am Truly Grateful.
Thank You.
Thank you for thinking of me.
Tags: Christmas 2009, Cliff Grimes, Clifford F Grimes, Clifford Grimes, Dallas, Donations, Mr. Sack, Special Gifts
The “Season” is over.
The commercials on TV are
No longer
about Christmas
No longer
about the celebration
No longer
about the joy.
No more Merry Merry
Loving Family
Happy Couple
Smiling Children
It’s almost as though
a switch
was flipped
a marketing switch
was flipped.
Which is fine
with me.
Right now
This moment
In time
it is
too much for me
the pain is
too much for me
So flipp the switch
and I will cope
much easier
It will be
much easier.
Tags: Christmas 2009, Clifford Grimes, Mr. Sack
Ho Ho Whatever.
Here I am at home alone.
I’m going back to lay on the couch.
Maybe cry a bit more.
Tis the season to be jolly…
Tags: Christmas 2009
Another emotional roller coaster of a day.
The cold is settling in…
I feel it
in my body
in my heart
in my soul
I feel it
I will be glad when this season is over
When the festivities and celebrations have passed
When the joy is a blurred memory
When the memories of my hopes and dreams are
no more than dust
no longer shards
piercing my heart
I feel it
the cold front moving in
The wind is whipping up
The trees are blowing from side to side
I can imagine that it might even howl later
A fitting sound for my mood
I covered the plants in the front, but have not the energy to finish the ones in the back. I lost some in the last freeze, I can only guess I will loose more in this one. I no longer have the energy to do everything.
Depression sucks almost as much as cancer.
Merry Christmas Eve.
Tags: Christmas 2009, Cliff Grimes, Clifford F Grimes, Clifford Grimes, Dallas, Mr. Sack
This Holiday
is No Holiday
for me
This Joyous Spirit
Around me
Like a faded picture
This Celebration Spirit
Around me
Like shattered glass
This Christmas Spirit
Around me
broken
Spiritless
Tags: Christmas 2009, Spirit
I can see that this Christmas will be one of the worse of my life.
It should have been one of the best.
But it will not.
I should be with people I love
who love me
But will not.
I should be happy and joyous.
But am not.
