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Saturday, July 25th, 2009

Sheryl – Kingwood Underground

Several years ago, I attended a Bunco event and met some nice ladies. For those who don’t know, Bunco is a dice game which has recently gained some popularity, especially among women in the suburbs – as a social networking outlet.

Well, my interest in Bunco was short cuz I prefer games with more strategy involved, but I did manage to maintain a - mostly online – friendship with a gal named Sheryl. I even went to her home once, as she was/is on eBay Power Seller and I was wanting to get into selling on eBay. I Got A LOT of information from her class – was Well worth it!

Anyway… On Saturday morning, Sheryl helped to “get the word out” and posted a very nice message about my situation on a local community web site, Kingwood Underground

Thanks Sheryl!

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Thursday, July 9th, 2009

Xeloda PAP Support

Today, at work, I got a call from Xeloda Patient Assistance Program Customer Support at Roche.

Wow… here I am, on this big company’s “hand out” list and THEY are checking on me… to see how I am doing… how I am handling the drug.

The lady was so very nice… we chatted about what I’m doing right, what I’m doing wrong, and what things I might consider changing.

Most importantly I’m taking the drug correctly (2tabs/2x daily as prescribed) and that I am aware of the common side effects and the uncommon ones to be concerned about.

She also mentioned not to eat spicy foods… uhhhhh… me?  Not eat spicy foods??  Like THAT is gonna happen?  Ok, waitaminute… lemme ask “why” before I make any foolish life threatening decisions.  So, why?  Heartburn.  Ok, I can deal with a little heartburn.  And seriously, the only heartburn I have had was when I added cayenne pepper tabs to my daily herb regime and then upped the dosage to 4/40,000 unit tabs/2x daily.  Heartburn for a few minutes after about 5 min of swallowing – relieved with drinking water.  She asked why I was taking so much cayenne, and I explained that I had read that there is evidence that capsaicin MAY affect cancer, especially to kill breast cancer cells, so I’m gonna heap that capsaicin into my body.  Go figure.

Second suggestion… forgo the greasy foods.  Well, I’m not much of a greasy food eater, never have been.  My weakness is the carbs – rice, pasta, breads, mostly gone from my diet now. So… why?  cramping.  Yep, I had kinda figured that one out for myself when we went to get Mexican food.  Probably the “greasiest” food I eat, and probably the worst pain I have had so far (on the gene therapy treatment), so now I am careful there.  But gotta have my Mexican food, my queso and extra jalapenos and my occasional margarita (or two)!  *LOL*  She said that was ok, just not in excess.

Third suggestion… go easy on the “gassy” veggies, especially raw, like broccoli and cabbage.  Ok, now she has named the 2 raw veggies I eat the most of – up to 2 cups of raw broccoli a day!  Again, why?  Cuz of the gas, silly girl.  Ok, I can relate,.  I am Major Mizz Gas. I.Am.Talking.Serious.Gas.  But it’s been shown that green vegetables in the cruciferous family — which includes cabbage, broccoli, Brussels sprouts, and cauliflower (especially raw) MAY provide Important agents (Phytochemicals) in the fight against cancer, so I will endure some uncomfortable (and sometimes embarassing) gas to keep them Majorly in my diet.

Over all, I’m doing ok and her info was very helpful, and she said she was making notes and that my input would be helpful.  Hey, at least I’m “giving back”!

I Hate having to ask for such high end assistance.  I’ve never been one to support the welfare state, even now.  I’ve pretty much always paid my own way – borrowing from my parents occasionally but not often.  This is sure Not how things were supposed to be.  For one, I Never thought Mr Sack would do me like he did and leave me high and dry to handle this alone.  But, it is what it is, and he is Most Certainly what he is.

And it is…

XELODA

How should I use this medicine?
Take this medicine by mouth with a glass of water, within 30 minutes of the end of a meal. Follow the directions on the prescription label. Take your medicine at regular intervals. Do not take it more often than directed. Do not stop taking except on your doctor’s advice.

Side effects that usually do not require medical attention (report to your doctor or health care professional if they continue or are bothersome):
•constipation
•diarrhea
•dry or itchy skin
•hair loss
•loss of appetite
•nausea
•weak or tired

Side effects that you should report to your doctor or health care professional as soon as possible:
•allergic reactions like skin rash, itching or hives, swelling of the face, lips, or tongue
•low blood counts – this medicine may decrease the number of white blood cells, red blood cells and platelets. You may be at increased risk for infections and bleeding.
•signs of infection – fever or chills, cough, sore throat, pain or difficulty passing urine
•signs of decreased platelets or bleeding – bruising, pinpoint red spots on the skin, black, tarry stools, blood in the urine
•signs of decreased red blood cells – unusually weak or tired, fainting spells, lightheadedness
•breathing problems
•changes in vision
•chest pain
•diarrhea of more than 4 bowel movements in one day or any diarrhea at night
•mouth sores
•nausea and vomiting
•pain, swelling, redness at site where injected
•pain, tingling, numbness in the hands or feet
•redness, swelling, or sores on hands or feet
•stomach pain
•vomiting
•yellow color of skin or eyes

What should I watch for while using this medicine?
Visit your doctor for checks on your progress. This drug may make you feel generally unwell. This is not uncommon, as chemotherapy can affect healthy cells as well as cancer cells. Report any side effects. Continue your course of treatment even though you feel ill unless your doctor tells you to stop.

In some cases, you may be given additional medicines to help with side effects. Follow all directions for their use.

Call your doctor or health care professional for advice if you get a fever, chills or sore throat, or other symptoms of a cold or flu. Do not treat yourself. This drug decreases your body’s ability to fight infections. Try to avoid being around people who are sick.

This medicine may increase your risk to bruise or bleed. Call your doctor or health care professional if you notice any unusual bleeding.

Be careful brushing and flossing your teeth or using a toothpick because you may get an infection or bleed more easily. If you have any dental work done, tell your dentist you are receiving this medicine.

Avoid taking products that contain aspirin, acetaminophen, ibuprofen, naproxen, or ketoprofen unless instructed by your doctor. These medicines may hide a fever.

Do not become pregnant while taking this medicine. Women should inform their doctor if they wish to become pregnant or think they might be pregnant. There is a potential for serious side effects to an unborn child. Talk to your health care professional or pharmacist for more information. Do not breast-feed an infant while taking this medicine.

Men are advised not to father a child while taking this medicine.

Where should I keep my medicine?
Keep out of the reach of children


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Friday, July 3rd, 2009

Congratulations, It’s An Infusion!

Today I got my Zometa Infusion! YAY!  It was done at North Cypress Medical Center Ambulatory Infusion Therapy Center.

And I Have to say, it was Such a Professional and Uplifting experience!

I was treated with Such Kindness, even though I have no insurance, the staff was Very Generous and Attentive!  With my financial situation, I secretly feel like a “beggar” of sorts, but that feeling was minimal today, and was in No Way caused by the Staff of the Infusion center… they were Friendly, Kind and I felt they were Truly Concerned and Cared about me and what I am going through.  They took time to sit and talk with me, and To Listen.

The Ladies who took care of me were Patti, Teila, Becky and Sharon.  Theye were Awesome!  Of course, I’m still dealing with “emotional residue” from the chemo treatments, so whenever a needle comes close to my port, I kinda “fall apart”… not too bad, but I do cry and get emotional.  But these Ladies were kind and took it all in stride.

It’s a Tough situation being in, having no insurance, having to ask for assistance… and medical expenses are Very high.  But Today I Got A Break.

The TOTAL of my charges – receiving the Zometa, compounding the Zometa for infusion, infusion procedure utilizing my port AND the necessary bloodwork to access my levels and tumor markers was $315.00.

O.M.G.  $315.00!!  I Can Actually “Afford” That!!!

Which means that I Can Afford To Continue Treatment!!!

Which Means I Can Afford the Fight To Live!!!!

And they even provided a nice lunch!!

THANK YOU North Cypress Medical Center Ambulatory Infusion Therapy Center!!

I can take a breath and relax… until the next hit.



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Friday, July 3rd, 2009

The Honorable Profession of Nursing

I know there’s a lot of emotion on this blog, and I bitch about what I am going through, but one thing I want to be Perfectly Clear on – I am Grateful For Every “Break” Which I Am Afforded.  Truly.Truly.Grateful.

And, despite the cavalier and bourgeois attitude of some Doctors I have dealt with (but NOT my Most Awesome PCP – Dr. Ronald Taylor), one Major thing that I am Eternally Grateful for is the Empathy and Gracious Care that I have been given by the Nurses and Nursing Staff, of all levels, who have attended to me.

I have been Truly Blessed to be in the care of these “Unsung Heroes”.

These women and men have treated me with Respect, Dignity and Genuine Caring which has made this Difficult journey So Much Easier.  Without them, my path would be Much Harder.  Much.Much.Harder.

To All the Nurses who have not only done their jobs by attending to me, but who have opened their hearts to my situation, I send my Utmost Gratitude, Sincere Appreciation and Heartfelt THANKS!!

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Sunday, June 28th, 2009

Comments

It’s Tough writing this Blog, each letter I type is a reminder of my situation and the fight I am fighting, the fight I do Not want to be a part of, but I am… the fight that I Hope to win, the fight which I Might loose.

A fight in which I am not alone, yet I am very alone.

Sometimes it would be easier to forget and simply retreat into a cocoon of denial… but I can’t, I Need to write, I Need to feel that I am Somehow making a difference with my fight.

I Hope there are people who are reading this Blog, I have people tell me that they are, but I really don’t know.  I find it interesting to note those “friends” who have pulled away since my diagnosis… or those who “can’t bring themselves to read” my Blog because it’s “too difficult for them”.  Well, lemme tell you just how difficult this is for Me.  I’ll go through this nightmare without you.

I want to Thank those who have left comments… my Real Life Friends who stop by and take a few moments to leave me words of encouragement – Christy W, Crystal G, Amber H, Marianne M, Katherine R… people who I have met via online groups – Bridgette M… people who I never met, but who have gone out of their way to leave me a few words – Gina M, Karin W… and All the people who have donated money for my treatment and recovery and left comments of encouragement with their donations… yes, the money helps ease my financial stress, but it’s Not just about the money, it’s about the Comfort and Power of Prayer.

You all Have No Idea what your support means to me.  At this time, when it’s So Very Tough for me, I cherish each and every word you share with me.  They bring me Much Comfort.

When I come up here to write, and there are no new comments – which is more often than not – I seek out your words and re–read them for comfort.  If they were paper they would be tattered from use, tear-stained and imprinted with my gratitude…

Thank You.


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Friday, June 26th, 2009

Off On A Hunt – Finding An Infusion Center

It was a Busy day today…

When I talked with Barbara T (the Financial Manager) at the Burzynski Clinic and told her that the charge of $1000 per infusion AND an Additional $1500/month to “handle” the (3 small vials of) Zometa was just more than I could afford, she told me “Well, we have to survive here”.

Excuse me?  How About Me Surviving Here?  If I can’t afford to stay at the Clinic, then I can’t pay for You to “survive” and if I’m dead, then I certainly am not paying for Your “survival”..

Then she looked me in the eye and Said “You are the one getting your medicine for free, right?”, like because I am getting financial assistance with my meds, that means I have the $2500/month extra to spend on other (unexpected) charges?

Nooooo… I’m getting the financial assistance because I don’t have health insurance and because I can’t afford the meds… I was Told $4500/month for my PB and my Case Management, I Signed a Paper Stating $4500/month, and That is what I have budgeted for.

If you can call applying for financial assistance, compiling info on organizing fundraisers and getting ready to sell on eBay “budgeting”… more on eBay (TeamDenise) later…

I guess they must have more patients than they can handle to not care if someone is unable to afford their services due to unexpected And Substantial increases in charges.

I want to live, I Believe in the Burzynsky treatment – I would NOT have stopped my chemo path and come to the Clinic if I did not believe.  I Want To Live.

I swear, I’m starting to feel like this unconditional faith is similar to the years of faith I put in Clifford and look how That bit me in the big behind!  Big.Time.

So… due to Those financial issues, I had to go by my (Totally Awesome) PCP’s (Primary Care Physician of the past 15yrs  – Dr. Ronald Taylor) office and get him to write a prescription for Zometa for Novartis Oncology (the company that has granted me financial assistance with my monthly infusion of Zometa – the drug for the bone cancer).

I had to confirm that North Cypress Medical Hospital’s Infusion Center would accept physical receipt of my Zometa and would be able to give me my infusion and what the charges would be for receipt, compounding the drug into IV, infusion and storage (3 months per shipment).  I was given a preliminary “ok” , but I have learned that “preliminary” is Not a confirmation, so I am not all excited… I was also given a cost range of $160 – $210, but – again – I have learned take numbers at face value where medical is concerned, so I will wait for a formal confirmation.

But it Seems like it will be doable…

We Shall See.

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Sunday, June 21st, 2009

Happy Father’s Day, Dad…

Happy Father’s Day to my Dad.

Again, like Mother’s Day, this is not at all what any of us had in mind for a Father’s Day, but I am so Very Fortunate to have have you and Mom by my side me on this awful journey

I know that you & Mom are supposed to be enjoying life and being in a “good place”, not having to take care of others.  Both of y’all have given up so much in taking care of your Mother, and Mom’s Mother, and then Mom’s Father and his wife, and now me…

You Know that this I not what I wanted… it was supposed to be Clifford with me, not you & Mom… he, the one you thought of as your own son,  betrayed us all with his empty promises and shallow judgments.

How can I ever say it enough… Dad, Thank You.

Thank You for putting up with Mom being gone so much to come here to care for me, Thank You for putting up with me, Thank You for all you do, Thanks you for “being there”.

Love You, Dad!

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Sunday, May 10th, 2009

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom…

Happy Mother’s Day to my Mom.

Not quite what any of us had in mind for a Mother’s Day, but I am so Blessed to have have her with me.

Mom, I know this is the time of your life that you and Dad are supposed to be enjoying life, not having to take care of others.  Both of y’all have given up so much in taking care of Dad’s Mother, and your Mother, and then your Father and his wife, and now me…

This I not what I wanted… it was supposed to be Clifford with me, not you… I waited so many years for him, and we all rejoiced in the promises that he made me… but he turned out to be weak and shallow and heartless.

How can I ever say it enough… Mom, Thank You.

Thank You for driving back and forth from Corpus Christi to take care of me, Thank You for putting up with me, Thank you for all you do, Thank You for being here.

Love You, Mom!

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Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

One Less Stress

I have rented the same house for 15 years now – my home.

It was an opportunity I stumbled across, as my Mother says – things happen for a reason.

I’ve Always considered myself Extremely Blessed with my Landlord and Landlady.  I’ve tried to bother them as little as possible, taking care of the house as it is my home.  They are Good People.  Like many Good People, they have experienced an unfair share of life’s devastations and set-backs.  The loss of a daughter to a car accident.  Almost loosing a son to a very serious, life-threatening motorcycle accident which took long months to recover from.  Not One, but Two homes lost to South Texas floods.  She battles MS, and she is in my daily prayers.  Yet they continue to reach out and help others.

They are Truly Good People.

They are, thankfully, in a good financial situation now.  His business has grown and is successful, and she has worked for the same company for years.

When I was hit by a DUI (2002) and was laid up for several months, they were there for me.

Yesterday I received an email from my Landlady in response to my “news”…

I’m am soooo sorry to hear of this news.  You know we have always kept you in our thoughts and prayers and will continue to do so through this ordeal.

If there is anything you need from us, just let us know (maybe keeping grass cut or something).  You know that you do not have to worry about the rent.

I hope this brings you some comfort and some piece knowing this is taken care of.  As in the past we have always tried to work with you on this issue.

Spencer and I understand your situation on living pay check to pay check because we were once in those shoes ourselves.

Well, I really don’t know what else to say except keep fighting.

Regards,

Cynthia

What can I say to such generosity?

Maybe once I stop crying I’ll come up with something appropriate…

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Tuesday, April 21st, 2009

Getting The Word Out!

My Good Friend, Crystal G, sat down and added the Fundraiser that my co-workers are hosting, onto her facebook page as an event!

My Friend and co-worker, Katrina M, posted my plea for help and offered a Full Week of Prayer onto her facebook page!

My Long-Time and Dear Friend, Crystal F, posted about my situation on her Facebook Wall and included a donate button for my fund!

I Am So Very Honored and Appreciative.

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