Got a letter today, from Texas Workforce Commission, which indicates that I am “approved” for unemployment benefits.
Perhaps I can take a breather for a bit…?
Got a letter today, from Texas Workforce Commission, which indicates that I am “approved” for unemployment benefits.
Perhaps I can take a breather for a bit…?
Tags: employment, job, unemployment
My hair is growing back pretty well.
It’s thick
and curly
and puffy
not like it was before
straight
I look like I stuck my thumb in my mouth
and blew
and my hair popped out
like a big dandelion puff
maybe someone will walk up
and blow
and puff all my chemo hair
away
Tags: hair, Hair changes
I have no Christmas Spirit.
I just don’t care.
My last few years have been such a roller coaster…
* Reconnecting with Mr. Sack in mid 2007
* Planning for a new life in a new city with the man I had held in my heart for over 30 yrs.
* Found the lump Feb 2008
* March 2008, after numerous reassurances that my weight was not an issue, even though I had lost 40lbs, Mr. Sack decided that I was fatter than he remembered, but he would “try and work through it”.
* Thinking I was fighting a “staph infection” for 8+ months with a plethora of antibiotics.
* The accidental loss of my beloved cat, Hardy, in Nov 2008 to a dog I had rescued several months earlier.
* Having to put Cole down because he had killed Hardy and I couldn’t find anyone to take him and I couldn’t keep him any longer.
* Diagnosed with cancer late Feb 2009.
* Dumped by Mr. Sack late April 2009.
* The discovery that several people whom I thought were Friends were not.
* Reconnecting with old Friends and finding strength in them.
* Loosing a job that I enjoyed, with a group of people who provided me with great spiritual and emotional strength and reassurance, which I truly truly appreciated.
Not to mentioned the numerous other “small” yet aggravating things that have continuously beaten me down.
All the time I am fighting this fight.
I just have no spirit left.
None.
Tags: Christmas 2009, Cliff Grimes, Clifford F Grimes, Clifford Grimes, Dallas, Mr. Sack
Second week without my job
Second week
I feel so deflated
I’m trying to “get going”
but I am so very tired of being knocked down and getting back up
Over and over
and over
again
can’t I just stay down?
Tags: job, unemployment
So starts my second week of unemployment…
I miss the camaraderie
I miss the emotional support
I miss the spiritual support
Being laid off sucks
Being laid off for no good reason sucks
Still sucks.
Tags: employment, job, unemployment
Only its not hairs that are splitting,
it’s now the skin on my feet that is splitting.
The past 3 weeks it was my fingers – spits on my fingertips and along my cuticles that made it necessary to wear band-aids and finger cots to protect my fingers.
Now it is my feet.
Especially my heels
Painful splits
Until now, it seemed that I might be able to “dodge” the Hand-Foot Syndrome that is one of the side effects of the Xeloda that I’m taking.
I’m slathering my feet with cream and aloe gel and then sleeping with socks over all that.
Offering some relief, but still is painful.
I’m literally walking on eggshells.
At least it Feels like it.
Painfully painfully so…
Tags: Hand-Foot Syndrome, splits, Xeloda
Life I’m living still sucks.
Geez I am just Pathetic right now.
Its Frustrating for me, but I realize that its to be expected, given everything I’m going through.
Just gotta Hang On through this “Rough Patch”.
Rough patch… *LOL*
Anyway…
I’m a Big Reality Show Junkie.
My guilty pleasure…
And my Favorite Reality Show, Survivor, was on last night.
I Love it!
John got voted off… what a Blindside! This season is proving itself to be interesting…
I have to be careful though, not to descend into a life of TV and computer games. It would be too easy to try and escape that way…
So I have to remember to pick myself up.
Remember that I am Surviving.
All around, I am Surviving.
Tags: employment, job, Survivor, unemployment
I slept until 11:13 this morning.
I can’t let this keep happening.
Better get the wah-wah-wah out of me by this week.
This week is it.
I don’t know if I can handle any more depression.
Tags: employment, job, unemployment