I wish I could get motivated
but I just want to stay in bed…
I know I need to allow myself a “mourning” period
I just hope it does not consume me.
How many hits can I take…?
Tags: depression, employment, job, unemployment
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2010 (35)
- January (35)
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- Test Results – Tumor Markers #9
- PASSED: Pernell Roberts (pancreatic cancer)
- PASSED: Jennifer Lyon (breast cancer)
- eBAY: Mission Accomplished!
- PASSED: Robert Mosbacher (pancreatic cancer)
- Lessening
- Side Effects?
- Rescheduling - Zometa infusion 8
- Fickle Computer
- A Precarious Situation...?
- The Curves Movement
- More Aches and Pains
- UPDATE: Dad - Carotid Stenosis
- Curvey
- Unable
- BURZYNSKI Article: Life Extension Magazine. May 2004
- Aches and Pains
- List Update
- BOARDGAMING: Jan 10 2010
- Weather
- Calcium vs cancer
- It Does a Body No Good...
- Breast Pain
- Xeloda - Fluxxed Again
- Dad's Health: Carotid Stenosis
- Weighty Issue
- PASSED: Shawn Felty (colon cancer)
- Rebounding
- Falling
- It Does A Body Good
- Lip Service
- BOARDGAMING: Jan 03 2009
- The List
- The Mask
- Welcome 2010...
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- 2009 (360)
- December (37)
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- New Year's Eve 2009
- UPDATE #5: Its Your Health Radio Interview
- Radio Interview, Its Your Health - Done!
- UPDATE #4: Radio Interview – Its Your Health
- Bath Water
- Flipping the Switch
- Merry Christmas 2009
- Christmas Eve 2009
- UPDATE #3: Radio Interview – Its Your Health
- Test Results – Tumor Markers #8
- UPDATE #2: Radio Interview – Its Your Health
- Holiday Spiritless
- Christmas Party - Burzynski Clinic
- UPDATE: Radio Interview - Its Your Health
- Radio Interview - Its Your Health
- Bah Humbug
- Puppy Girls
- More on The Pups and Christmas
- Zometa Infusion #7
- Unemployment Accepted - for now...
- Xeloda Resolved
- Prayers for Dad's Recovery
- Puff Girlie
- Week 3
- BOARDGAMING: December 2009 Party
- Party Time
- Spiritless
- Puppy Feet
- Walking Wounded
- The Biggest Loser
- Second Week...
- BOARDGAMING: Yet Again
- Splitting Hairs and Walking on Eggshells
- Surviving
- Sinking
- Bogged Down
- The Unemployed
- November (34)
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- Last Day
- Home Again
- Saleing
- Bayside in Corpus
- Happy ThanksGiving
- PET Scan #4 Nov 2009 – Results
- Test Results – Tumor Markers #7
- Countdown
- Listing
- Happy Birthday Mr. Sack
- Stun Gunned
- Job Nazi
- Zometa Infusion #6 Today
- PET/CT Scan #4 – Done
- Heady Presumptions
- Just in Case
- What Is Cancer? An Alternative View.
- Antineoplastons
- Warriors In Battle
- Push Me Pull Me...
- Fakers
- Guilt by Association
- UPDATE: An Interview… a job…
- A Sore Subject.
- Burzynski Clinic Monthly Charge – November 2009
- BOARDGAMING: Some More
- RECAP: Fall 2009 Plant Swap
- Steroids
- Healing from the Inside Out - A Seminar
- Gaseous
- The Truth Is... Deal With It.
- An Interview... a job...
- Recapping the Side Effects
- Halloween makes for a Deviled Egg!
- October (36)
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- Rotten Eggs and Poisoned Apples for Halloween - Yum!
- A Hug Won't Fix It, But It Sure Can Help.
- Help for a friend- Lone*Star Speed Zone
- Gamer Geek Blog Reader
- Chemo Port Update (from accident)
- Pink Rig - Rogue Pressure Services
- BOARDGAMING: October 2009 Party
- Personal Business
- In Good Hands?
- Accidently On Purpose
- Somers / Burzynski Interview on Larry King Live CNN
- Stand By Me
- Test Results – Tumor Markers #6
- Sara Sullivan Donations
- Awaking of Sadness
- Abnormally Abnormal Aches and Pain
- Terror of T-Rex
- Zometa Infusion #5
- Zometa Infusion #5 Today
- Pink Overload?
- Spank Me Here Wreckies
- PASSED: Ryan Alexander Brune (pediatric brain cancer)
- Swimming With The Sharks...
- Halloween Shopping
- BOARDGAMING: More
- PASSED: Rusty Wier (cancer)
- Nitric Oxide and Dr. Louis Ignarro
- Golden Years
- More Breast Cancer Awareness
- Burzynski Clinic Monthly Charge – October 2009
- The Waiting Game
- BOARDGAMING: Again
- Fundraiser Update
- Susan G. Komen Race 2009 - Houston
- Fundraiser Update...
- October - Breast Cancer Awareness Month
- September (37)
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- Old Dog, Old Tricks
- Fundraising Update...
- Painful Reminder
- Fundraiser Update...
- Update...
- PASSED: Sara Sullivan (complications from breast cancer and childbirth)
- Fundraiser Update
- PASSED: Turner Stephen Bruton (throat cancer)
- Test Results - Tumor Markers #5
- Crabby Cranky and Totally Humbled
- Back on Xeloda Again
- Attention Madame Speaker
- Zometa Infusion #4
- Zometa Infusion Today
- PASSED: Henry Gibson (cancer)
- PASSED: Mary Travers (leukemia)
- Chain Gang
- Seedless
- PASSED: Patrick Swayze (pancreatic cancer)
- Aminocare A10 and Antineoplaston Therapy
- HER2 is Ticking
- Loosing My Mind
- Understanding Tumor Markers
- The Genes of Cancer
- Burzynski Clinic Monthly Charge – September 2009
- Roller Coaster
- Tarceva Rash
- No Surprise
- Stress Me Out.
- Bending Over The Barrel
- Don't Tell Me
- Back on PB - for now
- Juggling
- Texas Health and Human Resources
- Vacation!
- Test Results - Tumor Markers #4
- Compromise...
- August (38)
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- Stalled
- The Business of Cancer
- The Ups and Downs of Xeloda PAP
- Fundraiser - A Little (Info) Help From My Friends...
- August 2009 Bloodwork
- Hair - August 26
- Mustard Seed Necklace
- PASSED: Ted Kennedy (brain cancer)
- September Meds
- Antineoplaston Therapy
- Hi Ho Hi Ho...
- It Just Can't Be So...
- Hair - August 18
- Update on Bloodwork...
- Oh, Momma Mia
- PASSED: Fabian Burke-Georgiou (diffuse pontine glioma / brain cancer)
- Tumor Markers #4 - Where O Where...?
- Xeloda - Week On
- Exhaustion
- Reaction - Zometa #3
- RESULTS! PET/CT #3 & Bone #1
- Zometa Infusion #3
- ARTICLE: Drug Compound Kills Breast Cancer Stem Cells
- The New Phone Books Are Here! The New Phone Books Are Here!
- Alone Again, Naturally
- Bone Scan #1 - Done
- PET/CT Scan #3 - Done
- Mustard Seed Necklace
- Tired of Cancer
- What a Way To Go...
- PET/CT Scan #3 and Bone Scan #1
- Heat and Light To The Rescue?
- A Mustard Seed
- Hair News
- One Day...
- Hair - Growing Back!
- Two by Two.
- The Price of War?
- July (40)
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- Reflections...
- Fight for Fabian
- Burzynski Clinic Monthly Charge - August 2009
- Glutamine and Sodium Phenylbutrate
- Changes in Meds - Xeloda
- Dealing with Wonky Drug Reactions
- Kingwood Underground - Thank You.
- Sheryl - Kingwood Underground
- Tagline
- Green Tea - Fighting Cancer
- Vitamins C & D - Fighting Cancer
- More Info on Sodium Phenylbutrate (aka PB)
- BOARDGAMING: BoardGameGeek - Thank You.
- Xeloda - On Again
- BOARDGAMING: BoardGameGeek and GeekList
- Social Security Fiasco
- Heartache...
- Mouth Sores - July 2009
- Acne
- Tongue Sores
- The Velveteen Rabbit
- Mama Mia!
- Finger and Toe Nails
- Lil Xeloda Vacation
- BOARDGAMING: Boardgaming
- Skin Rash
- Toasted
- Xeloda PAP Support
- Fundraisers
- Tumor Markers #3
- In The Grasp of Diarrhea
- Reactions
- Zometa Infusion #2 - Reaction Timed Out
- Miss Ivana
- Zometa Infusion - Reaction Countdown?
- Congratulations, It's An Infusion!
- The Honorable Profession of Nursing
- Hair Today, More Tomorrow
- Kingwood Underground - Thank You.
- Houston, We Have Infusion... kinda, maybe, hopefuly
- June (30)
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- Houston, We Have Infusion!
- This Week In cancer
- PASSED: Fred Travalena (lymphoma)
- Comments
- PASSED: Dr. Jerri Nielsen FitzGerald (recurring breast cancer)
- NEWS: PARP Inhibitors Working Against Inherited Cancers
- NEWS: New Drugs Could Transform Cancer Treatment
- Bob & Sofia - Melanoma Patient at Burzynski Clinic
- Baby Shower - Raquel & Neil, June 27 2009
- Hairy Legs
- Burzynski Clinic Monthly Charge - July 2009
- Off On A Hunt - Finding An Infusion Center
- Farrah Fawcett on ABC 20/20
- PASSED: Farrah Fawcett (anal cancer)
- CUT ME SOME SLACK.
- Burzynski Clinic - Even More Charges.
- Aches and Pains
- Happy Father's Day, Dad...
- Side Effects - Diarrhea, Itching, Pimply Rash, Dryness and Hand-Foot
- Burzynski Clinic Monthly Charge - June 2009
- Burzynski Clinic - More Charges.
- Zometa - Financial Assistance Finally Granted!
- Financial Assistance Stresses
- Phyllis - Breast Cancer Patient at Burzynski Clinic
- Xeloda - Financial Assistance Finally Granted!
- Tarceva - Financial Assistance Granted!
- Zolinza - Financial Assistance Granted!
- Zometa - Financial Assistance Denied
- Xeloda - Financial Assistance Denied
- Tumor Markers #2
- May (38)
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- Surprise Attacks
- Burzynski Clinic Monthly Charge – May 2009
- Changes
- How Dry I Am
- Nightime Pain
- Drug Financial Assistance - Off And Running
- Relief from Hand-Foot
- The Cancer Diet
- AminoCare - A Division of Burzynski
- Reactions - PB, Tarceva, Zolinza, Xeloda
- Financial Assistance - Drugs
- Chemo Treatment Photos
- Reactions - PB, Tarceva, Zolinza, Xeloda
- Zometa, You Are a Cruel Mistress
- Hair-y Photos
- Zometa - Again
- Zometa
- Reactions - PB, Tarceva, Zolinza, Xeloda
- Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser Event (Recap) - May 16 2009
- Reactions - PB, Tarceva, Zolinza, Xeloda
- Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser Event - May 16 2009
- Reactions - PB, Tarceva, Zolinza, Xeloda
- Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser Event - May 16 2009
- Xeloda
- Reactions - PB, Tarceva, Zolinza
- Zolinza
- Reactions - PB, Tarceva
- Tarceva
- Reactions - Sodium Phenylbutrate (aka PB)
- Sodium Phenylbutrate (aka PB)
- Bob & Sofia - Melanoma Patient at Burzynski Clinic
- Burzynski Officially
- Adding Insult to Injury...
- Happy Mother's Day, Mom...
- RECAP: Spring 2009 Plant Swap
- Nutritionist - Burzynski Clinic
- RECAP: American Cancer Society - Relay for Life
- American Cancer Society - Relay for Life
- April (35)
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- Consultation - Dr Salloum
- Dragons
- Still Ill...
- More News - Dr. Salloum, Christus Spohn Cancer Center
- Good News!
- Darkened Nailbeds :-(
- Hairless and Bareness
- Chemo Phase I, #4 - April 23 2009
- Chemo Today
- One Less Stress
- Getting The Word Out!
- Please Donate To A Good Cause - Team Denise!
- Painful Reminders
- AngerdespairterrorAnger
- PET Scan #2 - Results
- Tumor Markers - Baseline
- PET Scan #2 - April 16 2009
- Burzynski Clinic - Appointment
- Team Denise - Donations
- Chemo Follow-up #2 - Dr. Casimir
- Easter
- Chemo Phase I, #3 - April 09 2009
- Happy Birthday
- I'll Take Some Spice With That Chemo
- Control
- Seeing Dragons
- Eyelashes
- Dr. Burzynski and Burzynski Clinic
- Burzynski Clinic
- Shaving
- Being Bald Now
- Burzynski Clinic
- Can You Smell That Smell...?
- Total Shave
- Mohawk at Work
- March (35)
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- Mohawk
- Dr Stanislaw Burzynski
- Buzz Cut
- First Large Bald Spot
- Serpent of Chaos
- Chemo Phase I, #2 - March 26 2009
- ER Visit
- Toxic Releases
- Fretmen MIA
- Chemo Tomorrow
- In The Pinks
- Chatty Port-a-cathy
- My Folks
- Haircut - Short Bob Touch-up
- Haircut - Short Bob
- ACT Program - Emend
- Needle Aspiration Biopsy - July 18 2008
- Mastectomy
- Chemo Follow-up #1 - Dr. Casimir
- No Honor
- PET Scan - Results
- Chemo Phase I, #1 - March 11 2009
- First Chemo - March 11 2009
- Neulasta and the Safety Net
- Port-a-Cath
- PET Scan - March 10 2009
- Being Fine
- Riptide
- Fretmen - Visualization
- BSGI Test - Results
- Kurt Jones, Financial SOB
- BSGI Test - March 05 2009
- Chemo Learning Class
- Diagnosis
- Its Bad
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- Meta
When I was a teenager and had my first big hearbreak, my mother declared a 10 day mourning period. We draped my room in black crepe paper, played melancholy orchestral music, generally acted morose. Then after 10 days we abruptly resumed normal life
cherie’,
What an AWESOME acknowledgment of personal pain! The fact that your Mom did this – that she tuned in on what you needed and made it happen – that is SO VERY COOL!! My Mom and I are so different in our coping / supporting mechanisms.
It’s complicated…
denise
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