Don’t Tell Me

Yes, I know that everyone has pain in their lives
and not everyone complains.

Every day I take meds
to save my life
meds that kick my butt
and will continue to do so for months to come
meds that bring pain, exhaustion
a plethora of other unpleasant and debilitating symptoms
and I am rarely allowed to take anything for relief
because relief will possibility,
probably,
interfere with the meds
that are supposed to save my life.
Most people with pain
are able to get relief of some sort
I am not.
For the most part
I’m silent
I don’t mention
the pain
I don’t mention
the extent
I don’t mention it
at work
I don’t mention it
in my daily life.
So when I do complain
to my Family
to my Friends
within the supposed security
of those who I should feel safe around
to those I should feel safe to open to
when I do complain
that I hurt
when I do complain
how bad I hurt
don’t tell me
your pain
don’t tell me
that everyone has pain
don’t tell me
that others don’t complain
don’t tell me
to get over it
don’t tell me
to deal with it.
Just try to be a little
sympathetic
or at least
Fake it.

Tags: complaining, Sodium Phenylbutrate, Tarceva, Xeloda, Zolinza, Zometa

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