I am So Exhausted. So Freaking Exhausted
Seems everything I need to do is a effort… Every.Simple.Thing.
Simply waking up and getting going in the morning just wears me out. By the time I take my shower, put on my make-up, get dressed, feed the cat and dogs, take all my pills and eat breakfast, I am ready to collapse. Walking down the stairs wears me out.
I just want someone to hold me and tell me it’s gonna be alright… But that’s not gonna happen anytime soon.
I am physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted.
The physical part is due to the drugs that I am taking to fight this cancer, this beast cancer. The emotional and spiritual part… well, that’s due to everything else associated with the beast.
The drugs specifically are Tarceva, Zolinza, Xeloda and Sodium Phenylbutrate. Ok, so ALL of the drugs that I’m taking daily have “weakness”, “tired” as a side effect. Lovely.
A lot of my exhaustion is due to the Sodium Phenylbutrate cuz of the depletion of the Glutamine in my body. While Glutamine deficiency is rare, when it’s being purposefully depleted from your body the results are very much felt. Plus the fact that I’m supposed to be following a low protein diet (which I’m doing my best at) does not help with alleviating the symptoms…
I am just overwhelmingly exhausted.
But I have to keep going.
Occasionally I just want to chow down on a big, thick, rare steak.
Continuously I just want to crawl back in bed.
~sigh~
Tags: Sodium Phenylbutrate
Oh honey, I hate it that you are going through this. But you’re going to be OK. You WILL get through this.
Can it be anemia? Can you take an iron supplement? I know all the drugs are not helping, but if you aren’t already taking one, you might look into it
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That’s one thing they check for in my monthly blood work – iron, elctrolytes, etc… so far I’ve been ok. I have to be careful with what I’m taking too, that it doesn’t interfer with the meds. I want to get a flu shot, but have been told that the vaccine will be counterproductive to my treatment. That kinda scares me cuz I already get really sick when the flu rolls around, and to think of getting it with my immune system compromised as it already is…
denise
Surviving…
Thanks, Cherie’
denise
Surviving…